Weight

I had a huge rude awaking this morning. I have gained 20 lbs since the beginning of December. And I know why. The simple fact is I ate as I used to eat without any concerns or moderation. Anything and everything. Not just a small amount either. Sweets and snacks were the worst. I even drank on a regular basis. I can not believe my will power shattered me like that. A year a go it was in moderation. This year it was a basic pig out. Now I have my work cut out for me.
I am starting back from square 1 on January 2nd. That means no more of the little cheats I had. I need to lose 25 lbs and then I will reevaluate. I am a bit pissed now, but will get back at it.
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Merry Christmas everyone!

I am in Regina for the holidays.  1 year ago, I was struggling to keep my hands out of the cookie jar, and did a reasonable job at Christmas.  This year not the same story.........I can not believe how blah I feel,and how much food I have literally pigged out on.  It seems like  all my will power went out with the last wind storm we had.  Geez, no control at all.  And  feel it.

We have decided to start back on the program and out will be on January 2nd.  I need this. Clothing fits a bit snugger then before, but it still fit.  That is a major accomplishment, however I don't like the feeling I have of being big and yucky.  I really want to get another 30 lbs of, which is likely more like 40 lbs now, but either way, I want to knock it off.

So, after this joyous season, it's back to square one.  Look out friends, family and co-workers remember how bad I was the 1st week........well, I'M BACK!!!!

Wholly cow, where have the days gone???   It seems like just a few short hours ago, I was getting ready for the 1st Christmas party of the year, and now here we are 7 days away from the arrival of Santa!.. Wow, has this time gone by

I have been horribly bad these past 2 weeks.  I stepped on the scale this morning and I am up 7 lbs in 2 weeks.  Go figure!!  This was the hardest time for me last year, when we started the program and it continues once again.  Laurel and I have decide that we need to be in a range of weight, so that January 1st we can commit to getting the last 25 lbs off.  I had eased a 10 lb range.  Is that to much??  It may be, but that has been my up range since June.  I know I can bring it back, so I am content that if I can stay at that 275 - 285 range, then I will be comfortable, and I know I can take it off.

My will power is really weak right now.  The biggest reason is because I had allowed all my cravings to come back and get the best of me.  It's those cravings that will be the death of me, no literally yet!  I have to be able to fight those and shrug them off.  If I can get back into a committed attempt, then I know I will make my weight come off again.

So, with only a week till the big day, I am going to do my best not to get to the 285 range. I am currently just short of 282, so that is where I want to stay.  I will report in as much as I can, cause as per the email I got yesterday, I have people reading and using this blog as their motivation as well.

Off to Saskatoon for another Christmas party tomorrow night.  We will be dining at the Willows Golf Club.  I understand it is an excellent place to dine.  Golf Saskatchewan staff and a few board members will be there.  Looking forward to it.

The Christmas snacks have started and oh am I feeling them.  My stomach has been doing some weird things, and heart burn is a daily ritual.  Not only that, I am finding it more difficult to eat regular meals when I need to.  Not sure why, but I need to be cautious of that.

January 1st wil be back to the hard routine, and regular weigh in's.  This trying to just coast is not working.  30 lbs to go, and I am going to knock them off.  No question!

It was a crazy weekend............I had 2 Christmas parties.  The food was incredible at both places.  I did pretty good at the supper's , and had lots of salad and protein.  It was all the other snacking I did that killed me.  I absolutely hate this time of year, trying to watch what you eat,and having some many good things around you.  I suck at will power right now, I really do.  I try and say to myself just a bit and leave it at that.  Yeah, right!!!!  God, a ft kid and food all over.  That is the hardest thing to control.  So, during the week I am trying to regather myself, by keeping it lean and simple.  And do what I can to be moderate at the parties.  Thursday will tell the tale!!!!

Just getting ready to leave fort Laurel's 1st of 2 Christmas parties this weekend.  I have saved up yesterday and today to enjoy the supper and desserts.  I will not worry about what I should or shouldn't have.  I will just make sure that the portions are respected and that I will stay inside the can have zone.  Except for a piece of dessert.  No booze, cause I really don't miss it at all, and not extra helpings.

Night everyone................see you tomorrow

This is my convocation as a Certified Insurance Professional!!!  Only 27 years to make it happen.  I kinda look pretty dapper in my suit.........

Its a loss!

1.6 lbs........that's my 1st loss in a long time, and that nakes me pretty happy. I havr been so up and down for so long. I made a commitment to slowly get back to a proper process. Its been a bit tough, but it seemed to work.

I was not totally committed to the exact menu we have. I had some rewards, and as you know I don't call them cheats, during the last 7 days. I have been trying to reduce these so that my cravings will also be reduced. The real test will be this weekend with 2 Christmas parties. If I can just be watchful and not crazy I hope to maintain for this upcoming week. As my azz kicker Wendy said yesterday, they are just another meal. Make the right choices!!
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