After Christmas

I made it through the season but not without the extra snacks and over eating. It was really hard not to sample and enjoy the food endlessly. I tried not to two fist and stop at the food every time I walked by. However, I would say that I ate more then my share for a couple of days. I found it hard to just be sitting around without doing anything. The more we sat the more sampling I did. I certainly did not throw it all away, but I definitely carbed up. The results will show in the next weigh in.

I started back to the program regime this morning. I could really feel the difference while I was rewarding myself over the holidays. I was sluggish and bloated, and pretty much miserable! I am looking forward to getting back to work as well.  Less idle time I have the least likely I will be looking for snacks.  We removed all of the temptations that were in the house and we have reloaded with the right stuff. 

We got a chance to see my family for a few days.  It was really nice to have a visit and give them all a chance to see our changes.  It was pretty cool, to hear their accolades to us for the job we have done so far.  The person I really wanted to see was our dietitian niece Tiffany.  She was the one I wanted to show the most, that some programs cam work, even if they are not based on the Canada Food Guide.  However, her and her hubby Ryan were not around for a visit.  We will have to venture to Humboldt one day soon. 

It's Christmas time!!

The Forster Tree!



Well, it's here.  After waiting 364 days, Christmas has arrived.  I am sitting in our living room, with every one else tucked away into their beds, and looking at the Christmas tree lit up.  It's very peaceful.  It's nice to sit back and just take in the past year, our accomplishments and our thoughts of what has happened in our lives.  I would say it's been quite a year since the last Christmas for our house.  A lot has changed for the better and I know that next year a this time it will all have been worth it.  Laurel's family is here celebrating with us, and it was quite a day of finalizing purchases, getting food ready and enjoying our time together.  It appears some of them REALLY ENJOYED THE TIME.............thank god there was a case of wine!

I have come up from my down day on Wednesday.  I had some posts and emails from my azz kickers, really kicking my azz, about the comments I made.  I spent some time thinking and planning the next couple of weeks.  I am not throwing this away.  I am simply not going to let it get to me.  I will enjoy the time of the season, and I will make sure that there are rewards.  I will not allow myself to lose all self control though.  I will get back on the path well taken once again, and the weight loss will continue.  I have 45 lbs to goal, well actually 48 after this last weigh in, and I will get there.  The process will continue, and it will be because I am motivated and willing to get the job done.  I am going to treat the next couple of days as a break from the program, but Sunday morning it's back to the soy protein.  I deserve this time, and I am going to enjoy it, with no reservations.

Merry Christmas everyone!

I am disgusted with myself.......

So.....after 2 weeks of no movement, my weight loss has turned into huge gain.  3 lbs upwards after the last week.  I am totally disgusted with myself, and embarrassed by the outcome. For almost 4 months, I have worked my ass off to get my weight to a point that I am happy with the results.  It has gone so well, until the month of December.  Granted, things have changed since December 3rd, and my activity level has changed, n]my water intake is down, and I am drinking way more caffeine than I should.  However, how was it that I allowed this to happen.  I thought I was stronger, I thought I understood the program better.  But as with everything with me, I allow myself to stray and make changes to the process that is there for a reason.  Now I have to face the music and the embarrassment of screwing up.  Right now I am feeling very depressed and upset, and am pretty much willing to throw in the towel for the rest of December.  But that's what my will power is telling me,  but it's not what I want.  As I look at this post and see that photo my feelings are running down my face.  I knew it could happen, and it has happened, but right now it hurts alot. 

Where do I go from here??  What am going to do to get this on the right path once again?  Pretty simple.  Get on with the program as it is laid out, and forget about the gain.  I recognize where the last weeks mistakes are and need to make sure they don't happen again.  I have to get my water in my system and try and reduce the caffeine.  There is no easy answer, but there are solutions.  I will make those solutions work, and I will lose the weight.  It's really 2 disappointments.  I never reached my Christmas goal of 285 either.  So, my focus will just have to be stronger now. 

Today at the office we had our officialbaking swap. 7 of us brave souls got together and traded our wares.  Above is the haul we got.  Shortbread, cranberry cookies, brownies, mixed dainties and nanimo bars.  I gave the world famous fudge as my baking item. 

As well, my staff gave me an exceptional and totally unexpected gift for Christmas. They pooled their money and bought me a gift certificate for a new winter coat.  Apparently they are tired of seeing me in the coat I wear, as it is too big for me.  They went to the local store, picked out a couple and told the owner which ones to show me.  I had to order in my size, so the coats for review will be here just after Christmas.  I can hardly wait.  I did find a wonderful Columbia coat on Saturday in Melfort, but wasn't prepared to buy one yet.  Now, I have no choice!   Thank you to all my staff................I am so happy to have you all work with me.

Wednesday is weigh in........just hold the line, is all I am hoping for.  I can hardly wait for the holidays to pass. This is driving me crazy!!!!!

Final Countdown

Christmas is creeping up on us, and it seems to come a lot quicker now as an almost 50 year old, versus when I was 5.  Most of our preparations are done now, with the exception of that final grocery list.  We have got all the important stuff out of the way, so now it's get the house ready for the family to arrive.

We went to the kids Christmas party from Laurel's office last night.  It was pretty cool to see all the young kids flock around "Santa" as he gave them presents.  They were pretty excited.  One of the staff has 2 little boys that were just drawn to Santa, and with no hesitation.  They were on his lap almost right away, and wanted a present.  They didn't care what they got, they simply wanted something to open.  It was to cool.  The supper was pot luck and there was so much food.  Thank god for a tray of veggies and a shrimp ring.  At this time of the year, your lucky to find anything healthy at a gathering.  So much food, so many carbs and so good..........................I did my best to make sure there wasn't a lot of grazing.  You know, standing around the food and moving from dish to dish, without really knowing how much you had.  I find it easier to simply take what I want, and move to the other end of the town to get away from the rest.  I sampled nothing out of the ordinary lat night.  I will do my sweet sampling over the next couple of days. 

Poppycock

Laurel is busy making poppycock for the 1st time ever

. She usually makes other things at Christmas, but wanted to mix it up a bit this year.  Geez, just when the diet was starting to come back around, my temptations are in the open again.  I will sample a bit, yes, but that's all.  No handfuls!

We went to Melfort this afternoon. Stop in at  Mundt's Fashions. I was able to walk out of there with a pair of Docker's, size 44.  This is the 1st time that I purchased a general size piece of clothing from a normal store, like normal people do.  For some of you, you are most likely scratching your head wondering why this was a good thing.  For a fat kid, this is a great accomplishment for me.  It wasn't a big and tall store or a speciality fat guys store.  It was a normal everyday fashion store that normal, not fat people, shop at.  It made me smile................................and I was proud of being able to walk out of the store with a bag, with my pants in it!

I am done...............

Christmas shopping is over.  I have finished everything as of yesterday afternoon including my baking I had planned.  I now will help Laurel get over her hump, so that we are ready for company next Thursday night.  My fudge recipe has circulated out and about, and I hear it's a hit everywhere. Our baking exchange at the office happens on Monday.  Looking forward to see what's getting swapped..............

My wrist is coming along very nicely I think. The wound is healing well, and my pain has been reduced mainly to direct touch.  I still get some shocks every now and then, and that is expected.  I hope it just gets better so we can golf on our holiday.

I feel good but am starting to get a bit frustrated over the no weight loss think.  Tom has now passed me in weight loss by 5 lbs, and he has been doing the program about 3 weeks less then me.  The difference is he is more focused right now then I am, and I think he is closer to his goal, so he is more determined.  I think had  I stayed working and not had the surgery, it would change too.  My water consumption is down, and I have been drinking to much coffee.  That is not an excuse, it's simply reality. I want to get back on track but I know that I will have  my holiday difficulties.  I will do whatever I can to make sure that there is no gain.  If it means walking away from the cravings, I will do it.  I have spent to much money to watch it go downhill at Christmas.